so.. I'm married

ha I'm not really married. but I do think i'm getting engaged next summer. it's what my lovely lover and i really want, and we are so sure about eachother.

I'm starting off another year. again waiting to go to Iran. and it is also my senior year in highschool. I'm not really sure about how others say it's the best year. every new year in high school felt the same. I guess it will be the year I work hardest in, since I was completely distracted last year with a lingering depression and a spell of lazyness.
I really want to make this year at least fun. I'll want to get all A's, do you think that is possible? since I've never had all A's in my life? what ever, I can do it. I've got plenty if time to focus on classes.
At least I have one very good friend to be with.

Ramadan is starting soon too, and I have made a sort of oath to wear complete hijab during my fast. it will be awesome. it would give me a really fresh start, and of course it's good for my soul. and after that I have also promised to not wear revealing clothing.. not that I do, but I mean like shorts. but my shorts are pretty long most of the time. I would like to dress like Alice Glass from Crystal Castles. It's either pants or a pencil skirt and a jacket with a shirt of some sort.
and I want to look nice. this year I was completely tired and messed up and sloppy. but Sophomore year I looked really good. my hair was AWESOME. I had it in a straightened bob and I looked cute. now I have to figure out away to make my hair sleek and together because of how naturally curly it is. having the best cut for it also matters because there are no two days that curly hair looks the same it's always changing. curls work in mysterious ways.