I'm here at school when I don't have to be, everything is grey and tired and boring because none of my friends are here and I can't use my phone today because minutes cost money. So I don't like being here...but I kind of have be here to because, it's a little complicated.
I have driving school today, it's my first class. I really can't wait to get my license. My parents are buying my car so they're practically letting me run away. No I'm just kidding, it'd just be really awesome to be able to go off and drive where ever i wanted. Two weeks in the class I'll have my permit since I'm already 16 so I'll start driving sooner than a 15 year old.
My driving school is right next to my high school, and my house is 20 miles away from both places. So why would my mother waste gas and energy to drive all the way back to my house when i could've been here the whole time? I was home alone this morning but to my surprise she came and picked me and my sister up with such a short temper, i couldn't help but bitch back at her.
I found out that i really am suicidal. I talked to a therapist and we came to a conclusion of three problems that i have.
1. I am not challenged enough in school.
That is why i always complain that all my classes are too easy. I feel like i am too smart for regular classes and i am too dumb for Pre-AP class.
2.I miss my love and my friends.
I have A lunch and all of my friends have B lunch so i am alone the entire time of my lunch period. This is the time where usually my depressions start because there is no one to talk to.
3. There are stress factors connecting my trip to Iran and my grades.
Since the want for Iran is great then the need for good grades is desperate.
I'm incredibly careful and meticulous about my work now and if i mess up it's like
THE END OF THE WORLD.
No comments:
Post a Comment