fluctuate.

When you meet someone new the more time you spend with them, the more you like them (or the more you don't like them) right? Then they start to mean something to you, but you wouldn't sit there thinking about their death for more than an hour if they had died But when you're in love with some one;

Of course that's always a different story. You can't stop creating their image in your head and you feel like you want to spend every second with them. So you find all the time and anything you can do to communicate with them. Like nervously texting in secret, sending little emails, pretending to be antisocial to everyone around you so you can be alone to dial their number. The sound of their voice is heavenly but when you hear i love you every day, it can get old. [That's why i'm jealous that other languages in the world don't even have "i love you." I realize that in English its too easy to tell some one how you feel. it's only three words. while in other languages you must fully know words to truely express yourself.] so i lay in bed falling through the water of my waking thoughts, why? how could the best thing in the world get old? and i think maybe what if..it's not real? so i wait a day to heal and while my head sleeps, from under my pillow i get a text at 1am. and suddenly i'm happy again because i'm reminded about the lengths he'd go to just to say "how are you?"

and my love is alive again.